Life is like a roller coaster , there's always ups and downs , well, sometimes you'll just have to be though and get through them :)

I learned a lot this year , especially from those relationship problems I had. 

I realize life is too short to be sad and emotional all day . 

Yes I really miss my best friend , but i know she has new friends that she really enjoys being with so i think it's really stupid to be sad like forever because of that. So why not use the time being sad to meet new friends and write more music? 

I met new friends , and I realized who actually loves me and who actually not.  

I realized that there's no point saving this friendship anymore because I'll always end up being hurt again and end up being the only one who's holding this stupid friendship together and it's super tiring . Plus, it's not like saving this friendship will change her attitude or make her love me more , so wadeva . Gotta be cool and let it down yo.

 PMR and UEC is super near and I  MUST  START  PUTTING  MYSELF  TOGETHER! 

keep me in your prayers! 

haha but I'm still not gonna study now , shall watch running man first xD

oh and did I mention that Mr W is super cute hahahaha.. yea Mr W <3

kaykay catch ya later alligator !

oh and the haze in malaysia now is getting worst , please take good care of yourselves ! keep hydrated and stay healthy ! 

Jean xoxo

Hey.

So, a lot has happened these past few months.

I realized I'm very dumb.
And realized my life is also very dumb.

ohwells ,this is my life and i know there's nothing i can do to stop my life from being....dumb?.

I went through a lot by myself this year . All the ups and downs ...well , i think i do have Purple ninja with me? hehe

Obviously , I cannot deal with stupid friendship problems.
But I kinda handled everything by myself this time...

I use to really love them both. But then one left and there's only me and her . She use to be so so so important to me . But things change, people change.

She ended up always spending time with her new friends , and when she do spend time with me , she ended up throwing her badass temper on me. zzz

I really can't stand hot-tempered people , like seriously ew.

She changed , SHE changed , everything changed.

There's so much more but i guess i just couldn't talk about it anymore.

It hurts so so much inside that i can actually feel it physically whenever ......bla bla bla y'know ....lol ohwells.


I admit I still love her so much and i really miss her . I really do. I did like everything i do in life with her , I just couldn't let things down at the moment .

But i know there's nothing i can do bout it . She wouldn't be like how she USED to be , and she still needs to LIVE . so #ohwells




Tonight, I'm just very disappointed in every single person who appeared in my  life .lol
and I swear , this is so not a good feeling buddy . no no .

I guess i just need some rest ?
I'm gonna try my best to stand back up and live happily.

Yea i need some rest . shit gettin so emotional whenever I'm tired. haih




okay , enough for tonight. Wrote everything out and gotta go to bed..
ciao


Jean.xoxo

Blended feelings zzz

Hello,was in a mood to write  :)

So , school is starting soon , am going back to school tomorrow to rehearse the flash mob thing ,simply tiring and lazy zzz

Well, talking about school , next year I'll be in the same class as suenie ! My bestie for like FOREVER duh xP

We're in the same class for 3 years dy ! Awezome eh.

Hmmm, as for HER , well yea , she stayed down , which means she's still in a same form as she is in 2012 , yea....

There's always so much I want to talk to her , she's like A true friend to me , she's like another me cause we both think the same way ...I know what kind of songs she would like , I understand how she feels really missing somebody , I know how she would be like after 2 months time of holiday cause I know we both think and simply feel the same way ...

I guess the only difference is that I'm not as emotional and dramatic as she is .

She's always , always so super emotional and dramatic I guess that's what caused all the relationships problem , well of cause I'm not trying to put all the blame on her . But I still think that her thoughts is the main problem. Zzz

I really wonder how she would feel reading this blog , well , that's how we felt when we read your status on Facebook , you naive human being ! >/

I used to really love her , really really love her , but now , I guess things changed .

She didn't appreciate , so I guess I shouldn't be an idiot anymore.

Somehow , I really wish she will read this blog , so she can understand how the fuck I think of her now .

She made me Taylor swift her . Well, google it if you don't understand , xD

From best friend to best end , haah , well done .  Zzz

I guess if it's her , she would probably go like "oh, you dislike me now bla bla bla , I'm gonna end this friendship now ! Bla bla bla bla "
Oh gosh , stop it .

Friendship is a mental thing , I don't think you have to like sign papers or say everything out load and inform every single person that our friendship ended my dear . IT'S A MENTAL THING , IT'S INVISABLE , handle it maturely would'ya ? Zzz

I know I'm mean talking like that , but I've had enough . Enough of all this shit .
I'm not going to waste another second of my life on this shit.


Sincerely ,
The mean girl.

Hello , another boring day.

Things are all good for me these few days,
the RELATIONSHIP problems are finally to an end (:
soooo glad that she spoke out :D

Well, I've been planning for the family Christmas party these days,
loads of good ideas ;)
found lots of 'mustache' yesterday thinking of doing




these , cute huh ? x)
 waiting for the printing part , almost done :D

ohh, I'm making these for the Christmas party photo booth , pictures are going to be sooo cute !:F

Alina , my cousin and I were planing to do a Pajama theme party , imagine wearing pajama around and wearing these in pictures , haha it's gonna so cute ! xD


and back to those relationship problems,
well, everythings to an end now, so no big deal :)
SHE will be staying here , not going back to her hometown and it's a great news ;)
things are finally better and I'm glad :)

ohhh and JUSTIN BIEBER , My Idol got
'Best pop/rock artist'
'Best pop/rock album'
and
'Artist of the year'
for the American Music Awards !
how crazy is that?!
He's like the best !
I love him and I believe in him <3
ALL THE BEST JUSTIN !
(if you ever read my blog , lol)





ohh and that's his mom (:



Well i guess that'a all for now (:
Bye and God bless (:



Jean xx

Hey.
Exams are over.
but there's this one thing that I really don't wanna think about....

R.E.L.A.T.I.O.N.S.H.I.P.s

As complicated as always,
I really don't know why am I into all this sh**

The funny thing is I'm not always sad or emotional for boys but for this specific girl that has hurt me over and over and over again.

27 SEPTEMBER ,
a special day , for me (:
its my birthday,
well, it's also on the second day of our finals ,
that's why there was no cake but a really cute purple big cuddly bear that i call it PURPLE NINJA :D
It's a b'day gift that I received from my classmates (:
Thank you guys , btw

To be honest , I wasn't happy at all on my birthday , I was totally stressed ,yea because of the exam...
well, I felt much better after that ...
But,
I felt like there's something missin or whatever...
I kept on waiting for someone really really important to me ...
Well, I kept thinking that maybe it's because we've all changed classes and that SHE didn't know which class am I in , but She would find it out if she'd really wanted to.....

I went home that day,
and I kept on waiting ,
I texted with someone special too,
a boy,
hahahaha, we're just friends (:
I told him how i feel ...he encouraged me (:

I waited for quite a day ,
not even a text message,
and i knew something that i really wish , wouldn't happen after all...
I teared .
That feeling .....
worst then breaking up with your boyfriend.
</3
It hurts badly .
so so bad.....

I really don't understand why do you have to be so immature sometimes...
You really piss me off girl...
you shouted at me in the first place and now you're all .......man you make me wanna slap you!
you didn't even apologize , and now you're hurtin me like i owed you ?!
well, we've been into all those silly fights for so many times,
you even told me that you love me and that you really want me as a friend.
I've always tried to work things out.
But you're the one who's always f**king playing drama .
you were so desperate once, when you're still not use to your class ,
and now your having so damn freaking much fun , you forgot so many things.....
I hate to say this , but you're a Bi**h .
I guess you ended everything,
I guess our friendship couldn't make it ,
it's over .
I really don't want this to happen ,
but i'm telling you,
IT'S OVER .


</3


Jean xx

-这会是我第一次用华文写部落(:

姐妹，

结束不需要声明.

我们之间，果然是淡了...

不同班影响最大，相信你们也这样觉得.

我想说的是，

我们是女人，

都会很情绪化，

所以你这样说，我不会怪你(:

你会说出来也是件好事，至少我懂为什么....

为了不要浪费时间，我直接说好了，

第一，谢子晴，我不明白，不明白为什么你会觉得你被取代.

因为你真的没有.

至少在我心里，你没有.

每次放学想和你一起走，愫倪把我拉开，说不想打扰你和xx,

我会问她为什么，她会说我不会明白的因为我没有谈过恋爱.

我会跟着她，因为我觉得你和她毕竟有一起说过心事，会了解对方.

我并不想把愫倪说得很烂，因为她也是为你着想.

每次在女界遇到你，和你打招呼，那天心情好的话，你会理，心情不好的话，好像我根本不在.你和嘉雯一起离开的时候，就会开始猜，猜你今天到底怎么了.

我也不明白，不明白为什么你会说我们不够主动，每次看到你，每次，都会和你打招呼，也是一样，爽你就理，不爽就连看我们也不看.

你这样的态度，有时候我真的想大声喊骂你.

第二，你自己本身也是参你的朋友，你觉得我们不在乎？

你知道吗，我们也是在担心，担心真的会像现在这样，果然......

我有想过改变啊，可是，你和愫倪都忙着你们的 Love Story ， 都没在听我说 .....

我也不是想把自己说得很委屈，只是我真的有在行动.....

第三，那我心酸，你们又懂吗？

“姐妹” 不是你肚子里的虫.

你不说出来，我们永远都不懂，<---请你们把这句记起来.

"不怕想太多，只怕误会有太多."

第四，我想和你们做很多很多事，不过大家都很忙，

我知道，我们一定会有那个机会.

照片什么时候都可以拍，不过我们不同班，这个问题真的很难避免.

如果要，你们就必须抽时间出来呀，不过你们都没有.....

早上可以，不过你们都不早些起床....

Too bad la then...

"一分收获，一分耕耘."     同理.

姐妹，我们解决这个问题好吗？

为了要让我们有多一些时间一起相处，

每次放学一起走，对不起，NO BOYFRIEND ALLOWED .

至于下课就顺其自然吧，有位子就一起坐.

大家要保持updated ,没有update 到，不要责怪.

如果没有原因的放飞机，我会生气你.

就算放飞机，也要及时解释，不要认为姐妹就会很很很很了解你为什么放飞机.

晴，我不会计较你说的那一切，因为我也会有那些时候.

我不生气你，因为你终于说完出来了.

女人嘛，我当作你来月经啦.....xD

你知道吗，我们很久没有聊天了对嘛，每次你一找我，我会很hyper , high ，很像Justin Bieber 给了我一个笑容那样high...剩至有时会很紧张，怕得罪到你....

Qing,我们那段路不会是最后一次，下次还会有愫倪在！

这次你做得很好. :D

还是那句，

你没有被取代过.

重来没有，

我一直都在等你.okay?

张愫倪，你这次真的很千骂.

都说了子晴未必那样想，你看，给我猜对了.

我想跟你讲，

不要怕每次想太多，

想太多不用紧的，不用被砍头....-.-'

所以你就不要每次骂，好吗？

姐妹，

有什么就说，说出来，这样才可以一起解决，让问题安静的过去.

说出来，才可以把我们这段友情建得更坚固。明白吗？

尤其是张愫倪....

把心事说出来，TB 不是有group吗？

在那边update 啦，有什么大便都在那边说，不要怕被嫌弃，因为姐妹就是垃圾桶，心事垃圾桶 xP

“不怕想太多，只怕误会有太多."

这次可以是最后一次吵架吗？

我知道，大考后，

我们一定觉得这一切很笨...

因为去年也是一样....

PLEASE .

明天和子晴一起面试，祝我们成功!

哇，想一下，一起演戏喔....

walaoeh

好啦，没事啦，没事啦，把什么‘气’都吞下去然后大便大出来！

JIMUI 43VA

<3

我们一起去英国.你们答应我的.

会有下次！

(:

I Love you girls forever and ever and ever <3

Jean xx

                             

Hey guys!
Haven't update my blog for such a long time. D;
sorry bout that...
well, I don't have much blog fans ..so , I guess that's nothing.....:(
So,here are the photos for the last day of camp!(:

Parthenai！
The winning team (
       

Ulric !
(:

Tybalt  !
:D

Warwick !
:P

Valient !
((:

                    

ALDURIN!
Me!
xD

Imperius (:

<3

hahaha <3

/-\'

eheh.

The BIG BIG family (:

-The Missing Link camp-

-The End-

(:

Well,that's most of it (:

hope ya liked it :D

have a blessed dae!

Byee <3

Jean x